Before & During

It's funny how you look back at old pictures and you don't remember yourself looking the way you did. But what's even funnier is that it only seems to be the case when you don't like the way you looked. B/c when I look back at pictures when I was 21-22 yrs old, I can CLEARLY remember looking like I did then. I was I was thin. I remember how happy I was with how I looked and how confident I felt.

But when I look back at pics of me shortly after having Ava, back at my all time heaviest (270 something), I don't remember looking like that. Why is that? Is it b/c I didn't look at myself as often? Maybe. Or maybe it's b/c I just never really accepted that I looked like that. I was in denial.

Either way the girl in the picture was me. Throughout the years I was thin, I was fat, I was thin, I was fat and now I'm somewhere in between. I'm working my way to healthy.

Here's me in '08 (I think). I was def over 255 lbs but not sure exactly how much. And in Nov of '10 at around 160-163 ish lbs.



I cringe looking at those old pics, but I don't want to ever forget what I looked like. B/c it reminds me of how far I've come.